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& if my eyes, light up when I say your name…

Have you ever gotten to that point where you are like “enough is enough,” and even then you can’t let it go? When bitterness sits in on every part of your life, and no matter what you do, you can’t get it to go away. Everyone says time heals, but it doesn’t feel that way. Time likes to drag out and exaggerate how long its been since you weren’t bitter. Time likes to sneak up and remind you that you’re still struggling. Time doesn’t heal, people do. Memories don’t fade away, and it doesn’t feel like the pain does either. Somehow memories come back to knock the wind out of you when you least expect it. I’m not saying I haven’t moved forward at all, and I’m not saying I’ll never recover, but I think it’s a long road of remission, and there’s a part of me that won’t be able to come back for a long while longer. Which is sad in many ways, because most days I miss that girl. I miss her a lot. 

Defined.

Sometimes it’s hard to admit you’re struggling. You work so hard to keep pushing ahead, but sometimes you realize you’re not moving at all, just walking in place. Or worse, walking backwards. It’s at these moments that we have to regroup, reach down into that place, and give everything we have to get moving in the right direction again. These moments, when we have to fight harder than we even knew we could, are the moments that define us, because they prove how strong we really are.

On the last night of spring break…

I colored megans hair at 2am. We lost an hour for daylight savings. I went and saw project x with my brother. I had fun. And now that spring break is over its back to reality. Unfortunately. Back to studying my brains away. Only a few weeks until Easter and then a few weeks and we’re done for the summer. I can do this.

& when it’s all said & done

i can look you in the eyes and tell you that I’m happy and thats all that matters. sure i have some ups and downs, good days and bad, but who doesn’t? we’re only human. the sky is the limit, but that doesn’t mean gravity won’t try to keep us on the ground. keep swimming upstream, its more rewarding to fight and struggle for the path you want versus being pulled away down a path you hate. just keep pushing, everyday is both a new start and a new struggle. the sun will always rise, and it’ll be be alright. 

& it goes a little something like this

People like zac efron make you want to be in loveeeeeee. We’re getting married. But in reality. Day one of lent. Day one of giving up boys. 40 single flirt-free just me and god days. 1 down, 39 to go…

Sometimes

Sometimes the person who was supposed to be your rock, crumbles. Sometimes the most amazing advice, doesn’t help. Sometimes the people you love the most, leave. Sometimes when you try to get back on your feet again, you fall down. Sometimes people let you down, and sometimes you’ll let them down. Sometimes life comes at you fast and takes the things you thought you needed. But every time, you’ll make it through the storm and come out on top, because you know that fate will always win, and God won’t let you down.

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

Going to my dance studio when I was three for ballet for the first time.